July 20, 2019

Stubborn Love

Everyday is a learning day. Days spent in your company feels like learning how to manage myself in an emotional manner where I can continue to be balanced. Or at least make it out of your presence to let all the crazy seep out of my pores. Talking about freedom in life, in relationships, in the way you see the world. It leaves me at a loss for words. I feel like I’m stuck in a Jane Austin novel, responding to societal cues rather than USING MY WORDS. The words don’t come in the moment, I am paralysed by my own inability to formulate what it is I’m feeling into…

March 24, 2018

Snapchat flirtations

There are many things that bring me joy in life. Many. I am very thankful that I have the perspective to take something that’s not ideal and be able to learn a lesson from it. I was in a position recently where a gentleman that I had previously had a bit of a crush on (it had never gone anywhere) indicated my previous feelings were  (now) reciprocated.  For some context, this was done via snapchat on St Paddy’s weekend – thus my engagement into the outlined conversation was perhaps a bit guarded.  Said gentleman also resides in a different timezone and I have no idea how much Irish celebration he’d…

January 29, 2018

12 months a dog

Hi!  I’m Bella Mae Sheerney, a German Shepard cross who has spent the last 9 months of my life living with my Fairy Dog-Mothers at Gypsy Cove. I don’t really remember the first 11 weeks of my life, I know I was hanging with my brothers and sisters before heading to the RSPCA where I met these two on Easter Sunday.  Let me tell you, that was an emotional day for all involved. So 12 months in… Thought I’d share some Bella Mae learnings: Walking is pretty sweet, running is super fun! Especially if there is someone chasing you, or there’s a bird.  Cutting loops in the grass is a…

March 21, 2017

Flawed

People are just so fallible. I came face to face with gut wrenching disappointment after someone fell from the pedestal I had placed them upon. It was the combination of realising that they were human and flawed, as we all are, alongside the understanding that I had held them there completely of my own volition without their consent or knowledge. How dare they disappointment me in a manner that goes against the grain of how I’ve painted them! Them, simply living their life in the manner they see fit, unaware of the platform I’ve placed them on. The hardest pill to swallow is the one that is pointed out to…

January 22, 2017

Dating in a fast paced manner

Last week I tried something I’ve never, ever done before. Speed dating.  It was terrifyingly awesome! I spent the afternoon mentally revising all the ways I felt kinda gross and listing the reasons I didn’t want to meet any new people.  One shower, my favourite dress, eye liner, and a pair of golden flats (being amazonian, it was a team decision to avoid additional height with heels), I left the house feeling a little more upbeat about 20 or so strangers. I am pretty good with meeting new people. I’m not sure why I was nervous. It’s the unknown, ‘will they like me?’ ‘what will they think of me?’ ‘Baaaaaaahhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaa!!’…

August 3, 2016

A moment to pause

This last month has been hectic. I have started (some might say finally) standing up for myself in the world of relationships. Though there is nothing permanent happening in this space, there is enough activity to do some poignant self-reflection.  I noticed I was being a bit of a cheerleader to those around me, setting these men up to go off and achieve their dreams, pull themselves out of a hole or finally realise they need to put some actions into their own world. If you’re one of my people, I find it really hard to turn off and not be your cheerleader. It is also emotionally draining when there isn’t…